Reader's Digest Version

Lots of things have been going on as of late. Plenty of things I can blog about, but again, I am limited in what I feel I can reveal online. A fear.

I recently signed a lease on a one bedroom apartment and I am counting down the days until I am there. With each day crossed off the calendar, I get more and more overwhelmed with the move. I know I will be fine and I am blessed to have friends that are willing to help me move. But I lay here at night when I can't sleep starring at all the things I have to pack and wonder how I am going to do it all. I can do it. I know I can. I think I can I think I can I think I can.

At the same time, I am working on a show and we just started previews and continue to have rehearsals during the day. I feel like I could be getting so much more done versus sitting in the smoking lounge of the theatre with my children while they get tutored. HA. What I start to do is make lists. Thus freaking me out even more. Cause there is so many things on these lists that I have to do. I cheer when I get to cross something off. It's a little party that takes place with each line that I get to strike through the task that I just completed. VICTORY IS MINE!

On a personal note, my friend Molly has been going through some issues health wise and I am thinking of her on a daily basis. Wondering how she's doing, how she's feeling. Thank god for her not having the fear I do. She has been great in describing her experiences in her blog. Allowing us to keep up with her. Allowing us to go through this journey with her. When I read her blog, I no longer feel I am separated by a large land mass, I am right there with her.

On a random note, well I am always random so when you really try to break it down, it ends up being not so random. Did that make sense? I don't know. Who cares?! HA. I don't understand men. You make plans with them. You look forward to spending time with them. You know they are looking forward to seeing you. And then they don't show up. I'm sure there is a valid explanation like "I fell asleep" (as our rendezvous wasn't scheduled until about 11.30pm - the time I get home from work) but still, it's now the next morning...CALL FUCKER. EXPLAIN YOURSELF! Ok, I'm done venting. HA.

So there you have it. The reader's digest version of what has been floating around in my brain. Hopefully when things start to calm down, I'll be able to give more to you my solitary reader.